**Happy Monday🤍** Trick question … do you prefer my top up ..

**Happy Monday🤍** Trick question … do you prefer my top up or down? 🤔 ***personal update*** : hey y’all I serious miss some of you so much. Again if you did not know last month I had a family member unexpectedly pass away (a week prior another died due to covid) if you did not know this is the 4 th family member to pass for me within a year. Last month I officially felt I reached rock bottom I felt really overwhelmed and helpless hence my disappearance in the online world. Ive been home for a couple weeks not and have spent every day really trying to heal and get focused on myself. I know it’s my birthday week 🙃 but I won’t be celebrating it this week. I even turned down a family fishing trip. I just really need to focus on me and the best gift I can give myself right now is that. Ive spent every day making to do lists and being mega productive in my home updates, cleaning, eating good and my garden. This week I will be slowly intergrading back into my online life. I am not doing some big grand onlyfans return this will be a slow up hill climb. From just looking nice daily to getting used to taking photos of myself, to talking in messages a lot before I can get back on stream and get used to talking out loud. To help this process out I’ve also decided to officially pick back up on my cam room updates! Would you be interested in an unprofessional onlyfans painting stream? I have reached out to several contractors about fixing the dry wall but no responses so I guess I’m striping the walls and painting them black myself 🤣 I think finally getting my cam and film space right will put me back in the mind set I need! On top of that personal goal I am starting my very late taxes today! Lots of behind the scenes stuff happening here for me so I can get back to ***you***! Just know I’m thinking about you and I want to be my best self for you and I’m doing everything I can to get there! Thank you for the tips on my recently lame posts or in messages please be patient as I respond and thank you I am not ignoring them🤍 Love cat